Amy Rachael Napier

Bittersweet

allinowknow:

I’ve always thought of myself as quite an open person. I used to be quite secretive as a teenager and I liked my space but, what teenager doesn’t go through a phase like that, I suppose? I’ve grown up a lot since then and realised “a problem shared is a problem halved” and whilst I was very much more open than in my teens, in the last few months due to the changes I made that I mentioned in my last blog, I’ve realised that what I thought was me being open and happy to share…wasn’t actually that at all. To sum in up in short…I’m done with playing games. I want to use my words. 

I’m always on about communication being underrated and using your words to actually express how you feel instead of letting people guess and keeping them in the dark but I’ve come to realise that I, myself, never explored that to it’s full extent. When I say that I’m done with playing games, the two games that, I’ve found, are usually played are these: 1. You feel a certain way. Instead of letting someone know how you feel, you drop hints to see if they figure it out on their own and if they don’t figure it out, you hold it against them because you feel they should know you better. 2. You feel a certain way. Instead of communicating those feelings you hide them because if you do reveal how you feel, it would lead to an awkward conversation so you see how long you can keep quiet for and make those problems disappear by themselves. (Which they never do…#JustSayin’)

 That could be, totally, just me. I’ve played those games before. And well. However, I don’t think it’s just me because I’ve definitely had those games played on me before and boy, is it sucky and man, am I tired of it! I’ve got to a point where I don’t understand why we can’t just be straightforward! Why can’t I just use my words and have people use their words back at me? (Why can’t we all just bake a cake filled with rainbows and smiles and eat it and be happy?!?!) There’s no need for games and hiding. You can never help the way you feel and if you’ve changed your mind about something, that’s totally okay. What’s not okay is hiding how you feel and keeping other people in the dark and letting them make decisions based on the way you used to feel without correcting them because it really does effect other people sometimes! I made a whole video on this so I’m going to let past me do the talking and I’ll move on to my actual point….

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ylRwDSQaWCs&list=UUbhNxkjmpQcTJDrabiyzHUw&index=2)

Recently, I’ve realised what it is to actually be honest by meeting kindred, broken spirits. It’s a bittersweet thing to admit to somebody that you’ve been so emotionally broken by somebody else that you know how not to treat someone else that way and to have them admit the same thing back to you. It’s bitter because it sucks you’ve all been treated that way but it’s sweet because you know how NOT okay it is to treat someone that way and you’ll all make a huge effort to avoid it. Recently, I have met such kindred spirits and strangely (bittersweetly) more than one, boys and girls alike. They are truly wonderful people and how anyone ever treated them in such a way is BEYOND me but the fact I get to meet them and talk to them and prove to them that not everyone is going to be sucky, is wonderful and I feel very lucky to be friends with them. We get to be part of the healing process for each other. The thing we gotta work on is how not to get so involved in fixing each other that we ignore our own problems. That would land us all back at square one. 

So, yeah. I’ve started to be more honest about how I feel. More open. More willing to say “Actually, I’m not entirely happy with that.” or “Can I just say, I actually really like you?” or “I don’t think you realise just how sorry I am”. It’s making such a huge difference to my life and by expressing these feelings I never feel like I’m carrying around any extra weights. I feel like a far more light hearted, less intense, well balanced person. Sure, it sucks I had to go down a road very close to hell to get here but being here now is what matters…right? 

xxx
image

thecutestofthecute:

Australian Cattle Dog/Blue Heeler Appreciation Post

(via theangelhastheimpala)

justrollinon:

disabilityfashionproject:

2brwngrls:

Jillian Mercado is everything 

jillypeppa talking about body image and self-confidence and looking STUNNINGLY BEAUTIFUL whilst she does it

this is a gorgeous awesome video

chronicpainwarrior:

livingtolivedyingtodie:

Sex and Disability

Watch this documentary!!

(via justrollinon)

havemanymonkeys:

Good to know for planning reasons, continued and updated.

Neilsen has handily revamped their lists.

(Source: nielsentopten.com, via kellsinlalaland)

t1m3l0rdh4nj1:

Having a pet is so weird. Like neither of you speak each other’s language and yet you form some strong bond by rubbing against each other and sleeping together and you might accidentally kick them in the face or step on their tail once in a while but at the end of the day you two are best buddies from entirely different species.

(via ellie5192)

giveitup-forlove:

buddhaofficial:

qu4ntumflvx:

beyondjustus:

fuckyeahkaleighrae:

bear-me-watson:

pleatedjeans:

Disney is a Magical Place (30 Pics)

Can I be Sally?? PLEASE OMFG

the deadmau5 photo tho ha ha ha

This is why I love Disney

NEIL DEGRASSE TYSON THOUGH

NO BUT YOU GUYS ARE FORGETTING THE BEST ONE

(via jacehoward)

kellsinlalaland:

goldenheartedrose:

reikaoki:

imthezombiequeen:

alishalovescats1701:

crimsonclad:

five-boys-with-accents:

Eeyore is just one of those characters that you wanna scoop up and hug forever.

One awesome thing about Eeyore is that even though he is basically clinically depressed, he still gets invited to participate in adventures and shenanigans with all of his friends. And they never expect him to pretend to feel happy, they just love him anyway, and they never leave him behind or ask him to change.

Oh

oh

And he does feel happy, though. He can be happy. He just doesn’t show it as much as the others do.
There was a whole episode about that - Piglet sees him sitting on a hilltop and thinks he’s sadder than usual, and does all he can to cheer him up. Nothing works and the next day he’s back on the hill, and Piglet apologizes because he thinks in trying to help, he just made him sad again and ”I don’t come here when I’m sad. I come up here because I’m happy.”

There’s just something about that…

Also, I think I need to acknowledge that he’s probably the first character that I encountered as a kid who genuinely talked like me - with flat affect, a somewhat monotone voice. It isn’t necessarily that he’s sad or depressed, though that could be true as well, but that he’s expressing things in a different way than most characters do, so it’s read as sad.

He also being quiet notices more then the others and is the smartest. There was a episode where pooh thinks he can fly and no one believes in him but Eeyore 

I love Eeyore.

(Source: galaxieirwin)

an endless list of Vollha’s favourite characters Doctor Who’s Ninth Doctor
"It’s like when you’re a kid. The first time they tell you that the world’s turning and you just can’t quite believe it ‘cause everything looks like it’s standin’ still. I can feel it. The turn of the Earth. The ground beneath our feet is spinnin’ at 1,000 miles an hour and the entire planet is hurtling around the sun at 67,000 miles an hour, and I can feel it. We’re fallin’ through space, you and me, clinging to the skin of this tiny little world, and if we let go… That’s who I am."

(via river-song-has-left-the-library)

ravenclawalex:

"Hufflepuffs are known to have good friends in Slytherin. Hufflepuffs are some of the few who won’t judge based on negative rumours. This means they’re the most likely to approach Slytherins and help them when in need. This makes amazingly loyal friends between the houses. Mess with a Hufflepuff, and you’ll likely find a Slytherin getting revenge for the more forgiving house."

HELL YEAH FUCKING RIGHT

(Source: lovelikefallingsnow, via rebeccacrane)

tmichaelmartin:

A suggestion for a How to Adult catchphrase, in the Comments of this week’s video. HOW DID WE NOT THINK OF THIS, EMMA?!

tmichaelmartin:

A suggestion for a How to Adult catchphrase, in the Comments of this week’s video. HOW DID WE NOT THINK OF THIS, EMMA?!

(via learnhowtoadult)

sourcedumal:

starslicer:

tsamthepoet:

I hardly see any heroic posts about Muslims on here, so here you go.

It’s iron fist yall

Good fucking job dude.
#beattheshitouttarapists2k14

sourcedumal:

starslicer:

tsamthepoet:

I hardly see any heroic posts about Muslims on here, so here you go.

It’s iron fist yall

Good fucking job dude.

#beattheshitouttarapists2k14

(via senketsu-jutsu)


The other night I heard this, and I really wanted to draw fan art of Ember Mclain from Danny Phantom. I loved this show as a kid, and she was def. one of my favorite villain characters.  ♪

The other night I heard this, and I really wanted to draw fan art of Ember Mclain from Danny Phantom. I loved this show as a kid, and she was def. one of my favorite villain characters.  

(Source: iomaart)